I’ve come to a profound realization. At least it’s profound to me. 😉
Come to think of it, this little blog is an online chronicle of my realizations since stepping into the new and unfamiliar world of eating disorder recovery.
And this realization might just top them all! What’s the realization? Oh you just wait! 🙂
Lately, I’ve been considering my current position in recovery. How should I move forward? What does true recovery look like? How can I be truly consistent in my adoration of God and not myself?
All of the good things that God has shared with me through His Word, His Spirit and His people appear overwhelming to implement. On an intellectual level I am confident and solid. I know what to do. But as for incorporating these good things into my daily life? Well, that’s another story…
I believe that the problem of knowing what to do and having a hard time doing it is an integral part of the human experience. You’ve probably been there too.
It’s easier to know what to do than to do it. It’s easier to talk than to act.
And that’s just what I don’t want. I don’t want to waste my breath. Words are truly empty. It’s actions that count.
While contemplating these things yesterday morning God placed two simple words in my mind.
I felt as if Jesus were speaking directly to me.
Don’t worry about what’s happened in the past. Don’t concern about the what might happen in the future. Consider your current location and get started. Get started now on My perfect path of peace.
Okay ya’ll it’s confession time here at Surrendered Stomach… 😀 I’m super bad at directions and knowing my way around.
It’s so bad that although I lived in the same area for 15 years I still didn’t know how to make it to the nearest Publix.
But don’t worry! I’m doing way better now. I can make my way around my town in America but that’s only because I now make a conscious effort to pay attention to the roads. I’m just not gifted in that area. (We’re still working this knowing my way around Japan thing though… at least I’ve only been here for two weeks.)
But it really doesn’t matter whether or not knowing directions is my gifting because knowing directions is essential to get around! And I n order to arrive at one’s intended destination, one must know their current location.
It’s the same way with life and recovery. In order for me to arrive at God’s intended destination for me, I must kne aware of my current location.
With these thoughts in mind I felt inspired to create a list of my “current location” physically, spiritually and emotionally–a simply written sketch of where I felt I was in each of those areas.
I stared blankly at the list I had created. My current location in these areas is definitely not where I want to be, I thought.
I didn’t like what I saw on the list and yet it was totally true.
Once again God gently whispered in my ear.
Start right now, right where you are, and with the resources that you have. Instead of looking towards the past or the future, acknowledge the present and look to Me for direction.
And step by step, little by little, by utilizing the resource right in front of me (the Bible), God begin to show me how to start right where I am in the areas on my list.
My mind was flooded with directions and Scriptures that can be used to start right now, right here.
Below are excerpts from the list I wrote. The first is the current location, then a response and direction based on the Scriptures.
I am broken. —> Praise God that your brokenness creates an opportunity for you to experience God’s healing in your life. Focus on the healing that Jesus promised to give.
Start here. Place yourself in a position to be healed (by praying, listening to inspiring messages, meditating on God’s Word, asking for His Spirit etc.)
Psalm 147:3 (NLT) He heals the brokenhearted and bandages their wounds.
I am disappointed by my actions that do not reflect my knowledge. —> Praise God for showing you that it is futile to have any confidence in the your own efforts to do what you know is right. Acknowledge your disappointment and move forward. Don’t stay there! Hope in Jesus who will give you strength and will never disappoint you.
Start here. Quit thinking about your past and think about the power of that Jesus died to give you.
Romans 5:3-6 (NLT) We can rejoice, too, when we run into problems and trials, for we know that they help us develop endurance. And endurance develops strength of character, and character strengthens our confident hope of salvation. And this hope will not lead to disappointment. For we know how dearly God loves us, because he has given us the Holy Spirit to fill our hearts with his love. When we were utterly helpless, Christ came at just the right time and died for us sinners.
I have failed countless times. —> Thank Jesus that although you may have failed, He promises to pick you up again. Thank God for the priceless lesson that only He can give true success. Without Him, you can do nothing.
Start here. Link up with Him who never fails through prayer and inviting God’s Holy Spirit to live in you. Stay connected to Him and you will never fail. Ever.
Jude 1:24 (KJV) Now unto him that is able to keep you from falling, and to present [you] faultless before the presence of his glory with exceeding joy,
I am weak. —> Praise Jesus that His strength is made perfect through your weakness. Jesus cannot truly help those who are full of pride and self-sufficiency.
Start here. Admit your weakness to God, ask Him for strength and watch Him give you more strength than you previously thought possible.
2 Corinthians 12:9 (NLT) Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me.
So that’s my realization friends. It’s that God wants me to start where I am and move forward from there.
No looking to the past, no fear of the future, just starting right here and now and moving forward in the unlimited power that God is just waiting to give.
Isn’t that awesome? 😉
What do you think about my latest realization? Do you ever feel like you know what to do but can’t seem to do it? What do you think “starting here”—considering your current location and moving forward with Jesus–could look like in your life practically? Any other thoughts? Feel free to share! 🙂